A license, a Job, a Goal...

Just some call back, i have graduate, with a register license in my hand, a job awaiting for me, I believe is a start for a new set goal~ Maybe i could have a few~ The first day i step into the college, until now i have finish my diploma, times just so fast, now only i realize i'm in the new realm of my life. In this new year, i share it with my family, a new born baby, a man who i loved, friends that appreciated. Things just in it own place, as i know God has it plan nicely for me~ i love You, my Father in Heaven. 2011 was a tired year, studying, sharing, releasing, earning, helping, knowing new people. But, i still enjoy it, because from all the tiredness, i earn trust, love, and honesty. As i walk and cross over to 2012, i know there will be more for me to know, to learn, to establish. I want to follow my Lords foot step and grow, for there is always "impossible, difficult and Done" in life, but i know there will always be 2 foot print on the walk , as i will be waking with God in this year and every year to come.

The journey to the top

As the new year comes, i enjoy my last few days with my friend, and take a short journey to Batu Caves. Even is just a short journey,but we enjoyed it well. Still remember the last time i went to batu cave, i was only 12years old. The stairs was just a little higher by then, but now it is just "is not that high as i think it will be". Funny how hard is to climbing up, our feet gets heavy, but we were climbing and climbing. But when come to the road to comes down, its just easy~laugh out loud~^^

I really have to thank my friend Priya, she was by my site, explaining the histories of Batu caves, and bringing me to temple to temple and tell me about the Indian gods. From what i could remember, batu cave was dark, smelly and dirty. But today, i can even see the mini mart in there. How great is the human mind, to make business going in this cave. The questions, that kept striking my mind was " How they bring up the big soda machine up to the cave ar??"

Stepped in church again after a long period of time, seeking for the face of God, whom always given me Peace and Wisdom. As i open my long kept bible in my hand, i read through the pages, i realize i been too long away from God, he is actually speaking to me from the words of the bible. Instantly i realize i'm just like Habakkuk in the old book. With lots of complain in my prayers, but end with gratefulness at the end. When you read from the bible there is written "Through prayer The just shall live by faith". Where is the faith in me, before i open my mind and toughs to my Lord. Today I open my mouth and speak in tongues, i know i speak in God's language to pray to talk with Him. Yet i realize, i actually being scare to pray to my Lord, as i doesn't know how to lean on Him. I forgotten how to hold tight to my Father in heaven and receive His love. As His child i known really little of Him, how much love He willing to give, how much blessing He await to share to me and my family. I stood there in my place at my sit inside the church, thinking, wondering, praying, as loud and louder i pray, i felt relief. From all that i been through without knowing God is beside me, i felt unworthy, but God is still here with me. In a sudden i ask myself where is my faith? Why i'm so scare? Where am i complaining when i loss my faith? Isn't God is the mighty God? Then why are you so tends? Question shout to me, bring me to a level of spike! A drop of tear run down my chin, and i realize, how much God, wants me here..how much i want to be with Him.. I hope i can always always hold your hand my Father.. to live in faith..