Stepped in church again after a long period of time, seeking for the face of God, whom always given me Peace and Wisdom. As i open my long kept bible in my hand, i read through the pages, i realize i been too long away from God, he is actually speaking to me from the words of the bible. Instantly i realize i'm just like Habakkuk in the old book. With lots of complain in my prayers, but end with gratefulness at the end. When you read from the bible there is written "Through prayer The just shall live by faith". Where is the faith in me, before i open my mind and toughs to my Lord. Today I open my mouth and speak in tongues, i know i speak in God's language to pray to talk with Him. Yet i realize, i actually being scare to pray to my Lord, as i doesn't know how to lean on Him. I forgotten how to hold tight to my Father in heaven and receive His love. As His child i known really little of Him, how much love He willing to give, how much blessing He await to share to me and my family. I stood there in my place at my sit inside the church, thinking, wondering, praying, as loud and louder i pray, i felt relief. From all that i been through without knowing God is beside me, i felt unworthy, but God is still here with me. In a sudden i ask myself where is my faith? Why i'm so scare? Where am i complaining when i loss my faith? Isn't God is the mighty God? Then why are you so tends? Question shout to me, bring me to a level of spike! A drop of tear run down my chin, and i realize, how much God, wants me here..how much i want to be with Him.. I hope i can always always hold your hand my Father.. to live in faith..