I'm sry..

When things start to be good in our life, people tends to forget their God..

I'm one of the people that forgets,how God used to hold my hand and pass through the painful, cruel journey in my life..i still remember once i was so depress in a point that lose my faith to my King..i release my temper in many ways to insult God, but eventually i'm embarrassing myself..i still can felt that the tear from above that pours on me when i say all the insulting words i had made...

I often do a lots of "sinful" stuff in my life, i curse, i'm angry most of the time. And i end up embarrassing myself to other n God when i do that... I felt so stupid at times i wanted to throw away my shame and pride which does not exist in God's eye. I often forget the humbleness,the faith, the love that i once produce to my King and Lord. When i try to stand up on my feet and reach for God, my body stops me due to temptation, i know i'm in a wrong direction, but i don't seem to repent on what i'm doing..i admit i'm a sinner.

God, please plan me a way to redeem my humbleness to You, i'm so tired of walking blindly and don't look into You plans for me, i maybe strong on outside, but within me i'm weak and full of sins. God, i know i'm not alone, Your always here for me, but i'm indeed a lost sheep who could not find her way back home..i'm in the dark bush, i need light to show me the right path home...

I bend my knees and look to the stars above, and i know God is looking above to me...God, i'm sorry that i'm such a sinner who brings back scar and wound to You for healing, but i run away again once i'm heal up..